Truthful Tuesday & Don't Want Those Shoes & AAARRRRGGGG!

Truthful Tuesdays by Confessions From a Working Mom



Have you ever lost something...
And came out a winner?



Absolutely!  Before I met my husband, I was dating a boy who took my self-respect.  I of course I did not know myself at nineteen years old.  He enjoyed playing mind games with me and I soon became a mindless fool.  I couldn't eat, put on makeup, wear the "right" clothes without consulting him.  If we ran into his exgirlfriends, he would tell me how crazy and obsessed they were.  This went on, until one day I stopped being a mindless servant and took back my dignity and self-respect. 

I later found out that he did the same to all girls he dated, treated them like dirt and manipulated them.  WHY??? Well, he finally came out of the closet, No Wonder! 

I soon met my husband, and learned what a healthy relationship is.   I may have lost my self respect during that time, but I got it back.  I got back my confidence, self respect, self esteem and knowledge of who I am and the type of person I want to be. 


Don't Want to Wear Those Shoes!
Yesterday I went back to work and my son went back to day care. Some working mothers might be sad that they had to go back to work and want to stay home. NOT ME!!!!!! I am very happy that I am back at work. Does this sound cruel or selfish? I don't mean to sound that way.

I LOVE MY SON, HE IS A MIRACLE AND I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. But, I can not stay home all day and play and entertain him. I am glad that I get to go to work, talk to adults, gossip, eat when I want, go to the bathroom when I want, sit in silence if need be to collect my thoughts.
Yes its hard being a fulltime mother and working fulltime, very hard We all think about winning the lottery and living a life of luxury, but I would still work. Besides the fact that I worked very hard to get where I am and truly enjoy what I do.

I must give props to all of you stay at home moms, you must go ALL DAY!!!!!!! Those are some big shoes to fill, and I don't want to be the one to even try them on.

AAARRRRGGGG!

My son goes to a small family operated day care, WHICH I LOVE, and my coworker was already using-so I know it was awesome.

When I pick up my son, there are a caravan of cars filled with mothers waiting for their children to come off the bus. Figures, most of the time I am leaving, after having gotten my son, and trying to make a left onto the main road the bus comes and drops off the kids. Or as I am driving towards the end of the road the kids come off the bus and I have to wait for the herd to get on the car.

Well, some of these women got nerve!!!!!!

1-they pull up beside each other this is a small thin street and chat. HELLO do you not see me here?????

2-the kids take forver getting in the car.  I would like to pass and you are letting your kid have a full length conversation.  Why not tell your kid to move to let the car pass.  Oh, why would they do that, oh heavens forbid.  I picked up my kid TOO and want to get him home TOO. You live just up the friggin block, I have to commute!

3-THIS HAPPENED YESTERDAY- one of the mothers pulled her car out, as I was driving toward the intersection and was diaganol in the lane. Therefore I could not pass. WTF? she saw the bus coming and waited for her kids. WTF? ALl the kids slowly got into the cars, but her kid decided to have a conversation, and she started talking too! WTF? The worst part..... she used to work in our department in our school. OOOOH she saw the look I gave her. Sometimes she comes to our monthly working lunches, she better not even try being nice to me.

Maybe I sound like such a brat, but common friggin courtesy, SERIOUSLY!!!!!!

trying to juggle all my eggs..............

Always a DIVA, even when its hard..........

I am so upset though, I wanted to take classes over the summer to earn more credits, but now we owe LOTS of money for taxes (cuz we are in a higher tax bracket ????). So now instead of making some more money so that I could get rid of my debt, I'm just paying off more debt?!?!?!?! ---- its just so fustrating!
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It's funny............ everything happens for a reason. Sometimes its hard to understand, or it takes years to understand why, but there is a reason for everything. Some girls at work were/are pregnant, I am very happy for them. They are/will be great mothers. Years ago, all I could think about was getting pregnant. We've gone to fertility clinics but ran out of money and emotional strength. So I was hoping to take classes, to earn more credits, to make more money the next year...... so that eventually we could pay off debt to pay for fertility treatments and so Tony could be the stay-at-home parent. But now that plan is off.
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So I'm back to everything happens for a reason..... Sure if we had a child now, we would probably be in worse financial standing and how would I juggling my job and pay for child care????? So I know that its better that we wait until we are at least halfway out of debt. It still doesn't make it easy, especially when people who are married for less years than Tony and I are pregnant, when each year I'm getting older, when it seems that I'm at that age when everyone is pregnant.
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I also get very touchy about letting others know, because I can't stand the unsolicitated advice.

• why don't you adopt
• don't think about it
• you're still young

OKAY, enough of me complaining and moaning. I have a wonderful and funny husband, I have a beautiful and loving doggie Balboa, I have great neighbors, I 'm enjoying being the Secretary on he Board of Directors at my condo association, I have an exciting job, I'm part of the DWB family, I live in a great neighborhood, I am getting healthier and back in shape every day, I love my signature style of curly black hair, I'm loving my new sexy red phone, hmmmm what else.... I'll have to get back to you......

What do you all love? What are you all proud of?

I have so many blogs to catch up on.....can't wait to see what you all been up to..